Hospital - Day 41

c-section re-scheduled for Saturday at noon :)

Room opened up in the nicu/picu and they've reserved it for my lil girls :)

Hospital - Day 40 - No Room at the Inn!!

The C-section has been postponed.

After I'd been fasting for 12 hours, they told me there's absolutely no room in the nicu's. So, they won't let me have my babies today. It might be tonight....or tomorrow...or the day after that...

We just have to wait for some spaces to open up. So, I'm all packed up with no where to go. Kinda disappointed - I was so excited! But I guess the girls needed a bit longer to grow a bit bigger.

more later :)

Hospital - Day 39

2 little monkeys swinging from a tree
teasing Mr. Alligator
"can't catch me, no you can't catch me!"
Along came Mr. Alligator quiet as can be
and SNAPPED that monkey right out of that tree!

1 little monkey swing from a tree......

Just one left!!!!! YAY!!!!

Hospital - Day 38

BabyB had a really low baseline heartbeat tonight on her NST. So, the doctor had the nurses put me back on the NST for another hour. BabyB's heartbeat was still within the normal range, it was just as low as it could go and still be normal so they wanted to double check. She had tons of accelerations, so they finally decided she must be OK.

I'm sleepy, but glad to know the girls are OK.

Hospital - Day 37

Watch me: Twilight trailer
Song I can't get out of my head today: Lit - Miserable

3 days left :)

The one guy from food services who actually brings you exactly what you order is back. (I hate it when he takes the weekend off!) So, my food'll be what I want this week. yay!

My mommy brought me muesli for breakfast - yay :) It's really yummy and you don't actually need a recipe. It's one of those throw everything together and tweak for taste meals.

My nurses have started stopping in to say goodbye at the end of their shift - the ones who only work weekends. A few even cried. It made me feel like a lost puppy or wild animal that someone had taken in and nursed back to health and then had to return to it's real owner or release it back into the wild. I try not to be a bother, so it's nice that people are gonna miss me instead of being excited for me to leave...hehe :)

One of my hca's always calls me "my dear" which (for reasons unknown) I really like. Each of my nurses seem to have something that I really like - fun to chat with or always remembers to keep my cup full of ice, or guards my door so I can get some sleep, or really good at the NSTs.

ok, time for my nap. I hope ya'll are having a great day :) thanks for reading!

Hospital - Day 35

Today was whack!!...hehe

So, my Beautiful Rabbit threw up last night and didn't get to come spend the day with me. We chatted over the internet a bit and sent each other links. That was fun.

Sexy Haqon's tummy wasn't feeling great either...so I didn't get to see my family at all.

I had to post pone 2 visits and a web-cam chat cuz I was feeling so icky.

Icky meaning contractions. Stupid fake contractions that kept me in bed all day but didn't make them cut me open early - yay. They were about 10 minutes apart pretty much all day long.....but still didn't manage to do anything to get the babies out.

The twins need to stay in for a few more days. I think it's my tummy that's starting to longingly think of having them out already.

The weekend is passing much more slowly without my family to keep me company....but it's still passing...and it'll all be over soon.

Hospital - Day 34

Only 6 days to go!

I'm glad Beautiful Rabbit is coming to sleep over Saturday night. We need each other. I think my family is pretty much crazy from Mom being gone so long. It'll be nice to go home and the end is in sight! I hope and pray my family can hold out til then ;)

I'm 1/3 the way finished with baby-blanket-#2. I better step up the pace.

So if you have to have a c-section, try to get it scheduled for early morning. Mine isn't til almost noon...and I can't eat anything after midnight the night before. ...not even water or ice chips.

>cultural experience (that dance crew show).
Ok, last week we learned: bad="that was whack"
this week we learned: good="that was sick" and "you freaked the audience"
try to keep it straight ;)

Hospital - Day 33

In the middle of my afternoon NST I realized, 'a week from right now, I'll have 2 new beautiful yet tiny baby girls :)'.

Hospital - Day 32

My favorite NST gal went on vacation today. awwww man! She went to play in San Fran and won't be back until after I deliver.

The twins, taking pity on the substitute, have been angels for their NSTs. I'm back to sitting up during the test - yay!

My night time NST was late. I guess for some reason my test was lower priority than several moms on the floor who were bleeding :P. I guess I can see that. I wish they'd had time (5 minutes) to start the test cuz I can usually do all the needed adjustments myself. They got really busy after they put me on and didn't have time to take me off until midnight. (30 minutes longer than I needed to be on.) But again, the twins were very nice during the test and passed beautifully.

Whenever they're late starting my test, I'm always tempted to do it myself. The machine is just sitting there in my room...and I've seen it done about 100 times--often helping them find the babies. I haven't tried it yet. I don't know if they'd be relieved or upset....hehe

Hospital - Day 31

I spent most my morning recovering from last night. They were a nurse short last night. They weren't able to start my 3rd NST until 10:15pm! (They're supposed to start it by 9pm) BabyA is in a really weird position - it's hard to keep her on the monitors and get a good strip. Usually my NST lasts an hour, but last night they had to keep me on for 2 hours because they were too busy to sit in my room and hold the monitor on BabyA for the whole hour PLUS she was moving all over the place. It was 12:30am before they finished the test. The strip was really patchy and full of question marks (it prints ???'s when it thinks both monitors are picking up the same baby.)

For both the NSTs today, they had me laying down instead of sitting up. They put all sorts of pillows under and around me to make sure I wasn't laying flat on my back (bad for blood circulation to the babies). I felt like one of those really, really, really fat people who can't sit up in bed without the help of a crane. It was also harder to breath-I guess the girls were squishing my diaphram.

But all the uncomfortableness paid off - both girls were well behaved for the NSTs. They had great accelerations and no decels - yay :)

9 days left.....

Hospital - Day 30

30 days! I've been here a whole month!!

Ok, so I've been watching a show called Randy Jackson's American Dance Crew. Think dance crews of 7 doing mostly hip-hop. 3 judges - just like American Idol....one of the crews gets knocked out.

So...all the judges talk like Randy Jackson...only more so. So the judges say their piece and I still have no clue if the judges liked them or not. I think "that was whack" is bad. "Hot" and "Real" seem to be good.

The Jabbawockeez (also here) won season 1.

Hospital - Day 28

My family came to visit me today - yay!! I cried when they left.....big, body shaking tears. I blame hormones. It was goofy since Rabbit is staying over night...and the family will be back tomorrow.

Beautiful Rabbit held me and hugged me and comforted me. She said wonderful things like "it's ok" "I'm still here" "they'll be back soon" "We love you".....I should've been comforting her! She did an excellent job. (She'd say it's because she has empathy - which she's not fond of because she doesn't like feeling other people's sadness)

The tears soon dried and we spent wonderful hours together. My energy level was low, so we ended up mostly talking and playing word games in my room. I adore her! I hope we can continue to have "sleepovers" after I come home. Sexy Haqon left us with a bucket from KFC. Yum!

Hospital - Day 27

It's been a while.....so here's my tummy picture. I'll try to remember to get one of me hooked up to my NST.

BabyA is on the right and BabyB is on the left. They're both head down (lots of pressure!!). Their hands and feet are together (the better to practice H2HC (hand to hand combat!). Lately they like to push my stomach so I am full after just a few bites...and then starving 30 minutes later. Yes, Rabbit, BabyA has discovered the wonderful pillowy softness of my bladder.
/afk potty break :p

Hospital - Day 26

About this time each week, I start longing for the weekend....when Strong Bear and Delightful Finch will start searching my room for hidden (and not so hidden) snacks and drinks. Cereal, cookies, rolls, fruit, and esp drinks.

When they come at dinner time, they end up eating half my dinner despite having their own sacks from Wendy's. I can't bring myself to say no. I think they feel it's important to share mommy's food. and I can always grab cereal from the kitchen if I'm still hungry after dinner.

My nurse switched out Beautiful Rabbit's cot for me. The old one was really old and had to be uncomfortable to sleep on. This one has a new mattress that should be a lot better. Rabbit stayed home from school sick today. Her tummy seems to have settled, and I'm pretty sure she'll still be able to stay over Saturday night. Whew! I really look forward to having her over. It makes my weekends so much nicer (and faster).

The day I left for the hospital, Beautiful Rabbit kept giving me more and more hugs and didn't want me to go. I told her that when I came home, the twins would be born...and wouldn't be in my tummy any more. She let go of me so she could jump up and down and squeal. I am excited to see the twins....but I'm just as excited to tell my family, "Mommy's coming home with you!".

Hospital - Day 25

I like Wednesdays because my perinatalogist works in other clinics on Mondays and Tuesdays. Other docs from his office take care of me while he's gone, but I save all my really good questions for Wednesdays. Today I fell asleep waiting for him to stop in. So, when he came, I was zonked. He knows how often my sleep gets interrupted...so he decided to just come back later. I was impatient waiting for him to come back after his clinic hours....As always, he answered all my questions and reassured me that everything is going well.

Everything is going well.

I managed to sneak in a shower right before my night-time NST. I have a chair in the shower to help me not pass out while I'm showering. It's nice to feel all clean. ....even if they had to put gel on my tummy 20 minutes later for my NST.

Everything feels kinda blah lately. It's not that I'm depressed as much as it's just hard to find things to be happy about. I guess my hospital room is bigger than my college dorm rooms....but the dorm was (of course) way more fun....and not so lonely....and I could leave every day. I guess that's the part that makes it feel less like a home and more like a prison....esp when my family is walking towards the elevators after a visit and I have to waddle back to my room.

Hospital - Day 24

I took an Ambien last night to help me sleep. I slept great, but woke up with a terrible headache. It got worse and worse--napping didn't even help. I finally asked for some Tylenol.

Now you'd think Tylenol would be pretty easy to get in a hospital. ..and you'd be mistaken! Apparently, a headache is one of the early signs of preeclamsia. (Which I do NOT have, thankfully). Still, everyone was very cautious. They did various tests including blood pressure - normal, and checking for swelling - normal. They looked closely at the twin's last 3 NSTs - which were pretty much ideal. Finally they decided it was just a headache and OK'd the Tylenol. About an hour after I asked, they let me have some Tylenol. (pretty fast, really....just not as fast as I am at home ;))

Another nap and 2 hours later, the headache was worse! more tests...they gave me something a little stronger. They decided I had a tension headache (what me stressed??)....the new medicine had something in it that opens your blood vessels which helps your muscles relax. Thankfully this medicine completely stomped out my headache - yay :)

The next set of tests were going to be more invasive - drawing blood and checking my cervix. So, I'm even more happy that my headache is gone. I think I'm done with Ambien....(though it probably didn't actually cause my headache.) I'm tired enough all the time anyway, I shouldn't really need a sleep aide. I only asked for it because I had so much on my mind I didn't think I'd be able to sleep. (thus the tension headache....??)

Anyway, at some point during all this Sexy Haqon found out I was having a rough day. He immediately arranged things so he could drop by after work because he's just sweet like that. It really helped to have him here. I think that we were just NOT meant to be apart like this. It was nice to be with him and get lots of hugs. I love you, Boy :)

Hospital - Day 21

My wonderful family came to see me in prison er...the hospital today. Beautiful Rabbit hid in my room when it was time to go - YAY!! So, she's staying the night with me :) (yes, it was planned). When it was time to go, Daddy told Bear to give Mommy hugs.

So, I got a huge Bear-hug and then Strong Bear asked, "Do you want to come with us, Mommy?" I really did! But instead I explained that I needed to stay at the hospital. He nodded his head and then asked "Do you want to come with us, Mommy?" He asked me 3 times before they left. He was really sweet about it, and a little hesitant to walk away this time.

I'm coming home soon, sweeties - hang in there...just a bit longer.

Hospital - Day 20 (20 days left to go!)

I'm tired.

Hospital - Day 18

I met another mom in the NST room. She seemed really nice. Then we discovered we're neighbors :) A few hours later she sent over some flowers. I guess she was checking out and decided not to take the flowers home with her. Anyway, it was really nice of her. I went over to thank her, but she was already gone.

I had lunch with a Mom who's 28 weeks along. She's on bedrest, so I don't get to see her very often. It was nice to visit her in her room. She had drawings all over the wall that her kids had made for her. We're both using the same color (pink!) for our baby blankets. (yes, I'm once again attempting to finish a crocheting project. ...baby blankets are easy, right?...???)

The twins did well on the NSTs today. They were very active and it was hard to keep them on the monitors...and then they'd fall asleep. Nice that they don't move around so much when they're asleep, but they don't do any accelerations either. They don't sleep very long, though. And when one wakes up, she usually wakes up the other. It's cute that they already have fun playing together. Sometimes it seems like they can understand what we're talking about. heheh

The kids at home are starting to adjust to new Grandma and Grandpa. Yesterday was hard, but I hear they're doing better today.

Hospital - Day 17

I started feeling cramps during my afternoon NST....then I started feeling contractions with them. I went back to my room and took a nap. To my great surprise, I still had the cramps & contractions when I woke up. My nurse hooked me up to the NST for monitoring. The doctor checked my cervix - I wasn't dilating. They finally gave me some Tylenol which helped with the crampiness. I continued having contractions every 8ish minutes until I fell asleep around midnight.

The next morning my cramps were lighter and I'd gone back to having contractions that I don't feel. They're watching me closely, but I think everything's OK.

The only thing weird is that my stomach feels really tense and tight. I wonder if one of the girls has her feet jammed into it. It's making it hard to feel like eating.